My Adult Observation

When I was a kid, it was always very difficult for me to find a girl who would want to be with me. I had issues regarding myself which I just could not shake and this often left people feeling uncomfortable around me.My first love was a girl called Paula Augistino, the problem is I just didn't realize it at the time.

Instead, I often found myself daydreaming about another girl. Her name was Hayley and she was probably the best looking girl in our class.She was out of my league, I knew that but I could not get my mind off of her. She was like a thought that stalked me day and night. I would have done anything for us to have been a couple but alas, it was not to be. Years later, I found it difficult to even speak to girls, let alone ask them out.

I needed a new approach, where I could feel safe in the knowledge that I wouldn't get shot down the moment I wanted to say I love you.I had heard many good things about dating services. I had seen all the advertisements and as the days rolled on, I became more and more excited by the thought of signing up to one or two.I realized there was a certain stigma attached to on-line dating, but there are plenty of people like me out there - whom are just shy and need a different route to love.

What I loved more about dating services was the idea that you could look at someone and not have to worry that they'll catch your glance and in a heartbeat, dismiss your interestIt also was nice to know that these people signed up because they were looking for love. I uploaded my picture and filled in some profile details. This part too me far longer then I had anticipated.I found myself going over what I wrote time and time again.

I wanted it to be perfect, which of course, is a path leading to frustration. I eventually just accepted it for what it was.I e-mailed a few women that took my fancy. I didn't know what to say so I kept it brief. I mentioned that I was new to these dating services and that I was a friendly guy looking for a long term relationship.The next day I checked my Inbox and was pleased by the response.

Everyone I had e-mailed, had managed to respond which boosted my confidence some more. I sat there amazed at how many of them said that they were new to these dating services too.